e 19th year

I turned 19 approximately a month ago... Never crossed my mind to write anything about my birthday party... ( I wonder why...) I can say, it was the best birthday party EVER!! Blame the holidays on the calendar, my birth date was never a holiday season... For that reason and another, until I was 10 years old, I never really held a big party where all my friends would come. It was always a small gathering with my auntie and her family @ either my house or theirs. I never seemed to realise this fact until I was 9 years old and begged my parents for one... I was so excited but then fell into a pit of disappointment when a few days before the D-day, I acquired chickenpox. Coincidence, wasn't it? Ah well~

In the last 9 years, I've been holding my birthday parties each year. But most of them made me disappointed in one or another way... friends not being able to turn up, plans didn't go as wished, ... and more. But this year, 2007, I had it!! ^^ Not only that, I celebrated it together with my coolest friend~~ (don't go too high fran...hehe) I'm not saying that the party went superb and 100% well organized... There were still a few setbacks... But overall, it was amazingly GREAT!!

Gaining another year made most people sad (especially the older people) but for me... It means that I've gone through a lot of trials and received a lot of blessings too. I have had my UPS and DOWNS for the year 2006; my confusion as to where I want to spend my future @; my setbacks in romance; my new, lovely (4 e gals), cool (4 e guys) FRIENDS; my bondage with my family members; and my busy uni life!!

Without those, I wouldn't be sure I would be what I am now~~

No person can live ALONE in this world....Loneliness kills.

So, thank u to all my family members & to all my FrIeNdS... 4 makin' my life a beautiful one~

(tissues, anyone?!^^ )

1 Liter of Tears

The heat’s risin’ to my face.
Throat’s startin’ to well up.
Nose’s blocked by the accumulation of mucus. Sob.
Hold it, bea…
Sob. Sob.
B-But… It’s sooo SAD…
Weep. Weeping~ ~

That is one of the few (well MUCH more than few) experiences I have.
Well… as Graham’s line in the movie ‘The Holiday’:
“A good novel, a birthday card, a touching scene, I weep.”
Chuckles. I would believe without any doubts that each one of us has a different sensitivity of tear gland. Guess I have an oversensitive one.
Alright. Call me a weepie, cryin’ baby. I can’t help it.

My tears never seem to run out of stock!! I’m amazed myself.
Have u heard of the Japanese series ‘1 Liter of Tears’?! I’m sure u have.
Well… my friends (all of ‘em so far…) only cried in a maximum of 2 scenes.
But me?! There were only about 5 scenes that I didn’t cry!!
It was too sad, too pitiful.
I can always imagine myself in their shoes, and that really gets my emotions worked up.
Sometimes, I would feel so tired of holding the tears, and crying, that I had to take a pause in watching the series.
Bad, pretty bad, I know.
But that’s me. And that’s what this blog is ALL ABOUT!!

a DReaM of LoVe

Do u dream often?...I don't.
Really, what is a dream?! some people say it's remnants of what is on your mind before you fall asleep... while others say it's a vision from God...
In any case, i like to dream... good ones of course...^^
Maybe because I rarely dream, when I do, it'll be impressing... :)

Wait...what the...?! that's not the dream I was talking about...
I'm talking about dreams... like dreams to be tall (for some gals ;) OR dreams to become a doctor...yeahh... THAT dream~~

I've seen a lot of love stories... and heard even more!! I think mushy for some, but envy for MOST... I'll be swept away from reality... and truly felt the intensity of the moment~~
wish that I could feel that lovely feeling one day...
I think such an intense feeling will only come when both sides have shared SO much memories... whether good or bad...
I want to keep mine for the right one... the BEST one...^^
For now... I'll just continue my dream... the endless surprises that it will give me~~

DreaMs of LoVe